世界唯一的我: Life is a joke

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

October 1st 2008
My life gonna be different from this day onwards
Maybe not physically change, but mentally.
At first i thought, this could be a "joke" created by God
It seems like the "joke" has became a reality.
Im waking up from the reality now

What have i done to deserve all these cruelties and sufferings?
All i want is to lead a simple life...
Why must Heaven create such path for me to take?
Others say we create our own way our own path in life
It may seem like it but can we really control our fate?

Did some reflection on what i have been through in my life so far
I wanna thank my friends that have always been there for me

My brothers,
you guys are always there for me
Be it during training or competition
Always bear with me for my lousy attitude
I don't blame you guys for not keeping your promise to reach our goal
Your work comes first, your girlfriend comes first, your family comes first
I have no rights to stop you guys to persus your happiness
Even though it's tiring for me to carry on the mission alone
At least i know, you guys are doing well and happy with lives
Thus, i shall continue with the mission alone 'cos thats my happiness!

My sistas,
Thanks for being there when i need you all the most
Always there to encourage me to move on and seek positive thinking
You know, i love you all!

My loved one,
Im grateful that you stay on for me even after you know what has happened
You forgive me for my wrongdoings
You teach me right from wrong
You give me the sense of security
You heal me from my past and bring me new live
You love me for who i am...
For all these you have done for me
All i can say from the bottom of my heart
I love you!

One last person in my mind...
I thought time has healed my wound
I thought i would have forgotten you after all these while

I thought my life could have been better after you left
I was wrong
I hear songs that remind me of us
I go back to school and that reminds me of us during school days
The day we first met
How i injured your finger and how i got a hanaplast for you
How i got your number
How i asked you out
The first new year we spent together
The first Valentine's day we spent together
The first hug we had
The first kiss we had
The first quarrel we had
The first drop of tear i dropped for you
The first neo-print we took
The first sms i sent to you on my new phone
And the park we used to hang out near your house
I sent you back after training, but you didnt wanna go home
You wanted to spend more time with me and i enjoyed it
Even i had to miss my last bus and walked back home alone
Till today i can still remember very clearly how we got it started
The lunch at your place
The spring chicken
The living room
The bedroom
Every single scene is still so clear in my mind
I tried to forget you but its hard
Until i read a book recently
It says,
"Its not about forgetting the love, but about remembering the love"
Why do i have to remember our love when you walked out on me?
Is it because you are my "first love" and its so hard for me to get over it?
I don't know and don't wanna know either
I'm happy (maybe) with my life now
And hope you, too, are happy with yours.

I will conquer fate and win the battle, i defintely will...
For i believe in God and myself!

花生仔 =p
12:34 AM

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