Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Went to Phuket last Thursday(26/10) to Sunday(29/10). It was a really "suay" trip. Fell sick on the 2nd day, lost my diamond ear stud then my cell phone spoilt. Didn't get to enjoy much after all, but still had an enjoyable time with my friends. And thanks to those who concerned about me when I was sick. Appreciate it a lot.Didn't take a lot of pictures 'cos most of the time I was resting in hotel. Look at Patong Beach, It resumed it's beauty after Tsunami striked two years back. The 2nd picture was with the Iron Lady, Mod. She's really damn pro!! Unblockable killer! And the 1st picture taken with Stanley, a friend of mine from Hong Kong. =]
No mood to blog anymore...still upset over my lost diamond ear stud.
花生仔 =p
2:09 PM
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
WARNING!!! To all my dear friends, if you ever go to Queensway Shopping Centre DO NOT PATRONIZE this shop (above picture) at level 02-19. I'm not being racist(they are malays) but they are not doing a honest business. They sold me this FBT singlet at S$18, whereas other shops are selling it at S$13. The stuffs they are selling are damn expensive compared to other shops around. So...people patronize at your own risk if you ever step into this shop.
FYI: They have another shop at level one, I believe the shops are opened by a father and son. Oh! And I'm saying MOST of the malays can't be trusted, not all. They are still some good ones out there. (I'M REALLY NOT BEING RACIST)
花生仔 =p
1:33 PM
Friday, October 20, 2006
It has been a week since my last post. Trying to forget the unhappy things. Coping well, i guess. Went to Party World after volleyball games on Wednesday(18/10). Had loads of fun with the guys. Went to William's place to watch Women's Grand Prix till dawn breaks.
One more week to Phuket. One more month to my Birthday.(sigh!!!)
Thanks to those who concern about me. Will try to recover from my cough and we will have more fun on my Birthday party. No fried and oily food for now. Drink more water. I know. Haha~~
My favourite song of the week:
彩虹天堂
我不知不觉又徘徊在从前
秋风悄悄的呼唤听来尽是孤
单落叶的期盼片片左右为难
心走寂寞攀跟著飘进黑暗
我不闻不问也许好过一点
被遗憾关在房间挣扎只是拖延
无望的空谈一声声的轻叹
回忆扯不断怎?摆脱纠缠
找不到方向往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱在用幸福触摸忧伤
两个人相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光
找不到方向往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱在用幸福触摸忧伤
两个人相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光有你在我身旁
One more week to Phuket. One more month to my Birthday.(sigh!!!)
Thanks to those who concern about me. Will try to recover from my cough and we will have more fun on my Birthday party. No fried and oily food for now. Drink more water. I know. Haha~~
My favourite song of the week:
彩虹天堂
我不知不觉又徘徊在从前
秋风悄悄的呼唤听来尽是孤
单落叶的期盼片片左右为难
心走寂寞攀跟著飘进黑暗
我不闻不问也许好过一点
被遗憾关在房间挣扎只是拖延
无望的空谈一声声的轻叹
回忆扯不断怎?摆脱纠缠
找不到方向往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱在用幸福触摸忧伤
两个人相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光
找不到方向往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱在用幸福触摸忧伤
两个人相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光有你在我身旁
花生仔 =p
2:21 PM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Day after day, week after week...still haven't found a job yet. I NEED A JOB BADLY!!! I can't carry on with this kinda "da shao ye" life-style, I have to work. Work to earn my income, work to kill time, work to forget that someone in my heart, work to...whatever!
I wanna leave Singapore to a place where noone knows me. I can't stand my hypocritical friends. Buddies are no buddies. No action, talk only! Call yourself my buddy, save it! You who claim to be my buddy is not a buddy of mine. I hate living my life wearing a mask everyday. I'm not someone that knows how to suck you up, neither am i a sycophant. I have seen through everyone, or rather most of ya, in my life. Am REALLY appreciate my so-called buddies for coming into my life, but am tired with all the faked smiles on your faces. It's been long three years...I can't stand you anymore! You people have upset me times and again. I know who are really true and worth being my friends, thanks for being there for me kh, sj, lj and my gal of cos. And not forgetting my beloved auntie jamie and jessie. Thanks for going through with me during my most down period and listen to all my sorrows. No word can express my gratitude to you guys.
If time could turn back, I swear I would start everything afresh. I would not choose this path, this unholy path. I would aim for higher and better. Owell, maybe in my next life then. Never regret meeting my doggie. You brought me all the sweet memories that noone could ever give it to me. Those were our memories. I will always keep it inside my heart. Locked it and never let it slips off. May you be blessed with him.
Sometimes I think to myself, why the hell did i come to this world? A punishment from God, because i had did something really bad and horribe in my previous life, that's why i'm having all these sufferings now? If that's so, then i gotta give up on my life. Let fate decides everything. There's a cliche saying "Fate lies in your hands", but what can my hands do? Other than playing volleyball and some other "stuff", what else does it know? Don't tell me having a good skill in volleyball is a gift from God? God must have sent me to the wrong region then.
I tried to be more optimistic, i really did...but that didn't change anything in me. I'm just living in misery. I'm just cheating myself. When my loved ones left me, I tried to be strong not to shed any tears. I tried to take things easy but deep inside me how did i feel? When I need someone to hug, there's noone. When I need a shoulder to cry, there's noone. I'm a human being yet I'm reserving my emotions in me, not letting it out. I don't know how long can I hold on to this kinda life. I need a love too. I'm quite an outdoor person, homely at times, I can't possibly stay at home all day long. I will go nut sooner or later. I need my friends to accompany me for a meal or a movie. I don't see any problem with that, yet I have to get permission before doing anything. I'm no pet, I'm a human being. I need my own space. I need a break from all these. It suffocating me, I need to breathe. I'm sorry that I have to leave. I have had enough with all these nonsense. Forgive me.
花生仔 =p
11:49 PM
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
I knew I would get myself burnt right from the beginning, yet i still chose to go for it. Owell...noone's to blame for all these to happen, only myself.
Many unhappy things have happened lately and that make my life even more miserable. I hate the moment when night falls. I hate being alone. I hate being so lost. I hate being so terrible. I hate being myself. I hate my life. I feel so empty, just like an empty shell. I lost my soul. =[
我们日日夜夜都在爱着谁? 我们日日夜夜都在想着谁? 你需要安慰我陪你掉眼泪. 闭上眼睛感觉你在我周围. 感情不就是一人给一人收, 总会有人吃亏. 看着你在他的怀抱, 我只能祝福你们...
Many unhappy things have happened lately and that make my life even more miserable. I hate the moment when night falls. I hate being alone. I hate being so lost. I hate being so terrible. I hate being myself. I hate my life. I feel so empty, just like an empty shell. I lost my soul. =[
我们日日夜夜都在爱着谁? 我们日日夜夜都在想着谁? 你需要安慰我陪你掉眼泪. 闭上眼睛感觉你在我周围. 感情不就是一人给一人收, 总会有人吃亏. 看着你在他的怀抱, 我只能祝福你们...
花生仔 =p
2:52 AM
Sunday, October 08, 2006
只要能够永远伴在你左右, 我愿意为你去承受一切, 虽然爱的不是我...对我已经足够了. 你好吗? 你快了吗? 想我吗? 闭上眼, 什么感觉? 每一天在你的怀里等待, 每一天在你的梦里等待. 你还记得你对我说过的话吗? 虽然我们都害怕, 天黑以后我们都不知道会不会有以后. 亲爱的, 我想就这样牵着你的手不放开. 爱, 可不可以这样简简单单没有伤害. 你靠着我的肩膀, 你躺在我的胸口睡觉, 我想就这样和你过一辈子. 星空下相爱, 我害羞期待你给我的爱, 只要你一句话我愿一辈子作你的男孩. 你知道吗, 这一生遇见你是我欠你的. 也许轮回里早已拄定今生今世就该我还给你. 亲爱的, 你在哪里?
无份有缘, 回忆不断. 一种相思, 两段苦恋.
花生仔 =p
2:59 PM
Thursday, October 05, 2006
最近心里很不舒服, 生活中发生了一些小状况.
还不是为了感情的事而烦.
和得来就在一起, 和不来就散.
感情嘛就是如此的令人乏味.
我也不想多讲, 过去的已经过去了没什么好谈的.
除了为这儿讨人厌的事而烦, 心里还有更多的烦恼及矛盾.
可我不想多说下去.
他是否在想我呢? 我好需要他的存在,
他是否在想我呢? 我好需要他的存在,
但我不能那么自私自利只管自己而忽略了他的感受.
希望明天会更好.
花生仔 =p
1:34 AM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
已经有好多年没有庆祝儿童节了，真怀念小时候的时光，多令人陶醉的童年都成了回忆停留在历史。我一天天的长大成人，可我的思想跟一般的孩童没差。永远都是天真无邪的傻小子，活在自己的童话世界里。永远都是爷爷奶奶的掌上明"猪"。可惜他们都走得早，无法看到从一个乳臭未干的小子长大成年人的我。以前还以为爷爷不疼我、不爱我，最后在他去世之后才知道他是多么的爱护着我。他想把他的房子当做遗产留给我，但我并没接受。不知是我年少无知还是我傻，我竟然没要那间屋子。最后在和朋友聊天才得知如果父母亲送一间家给你，就等于他们都把所有的一切都给了你。我最后才醒悟原来爷爷想把他的一切都转到我名下只是一切已经太迟了，他人已踏上黄泉路。
长大后也学人家谈感情， 只是一直没顺利过。感情，是一种令人疲惫不堪竟也是让人生死相依的东西。我什么时候才学得懂呢？我以踏上了一条不归路，恋上了一段不该恋的情。我心里都是在挂念着他，他得知吗？他心里是否也是惦记着我呢?
花生仔 =p
1:38 AM
